On Friday I was able to get my allergy testing taken care of only to discover much to my NOT surprise that I'm basically constantly suffering with allergies throughout the entire year.... My doctor told me that I didn't have an allergy season I had an allergy year and that my allergies to dust and grass and trees and mold ensure that I have no idea what it's like to feel well. Who knew?
Although I wasn't surprised to find that I had bad allergies, I was surprised to find that I am currently fighting them because I feel SOOOOOOO much better in the summer than I do during the school year... which leads me to believe that perhaps the doctor is wrong......maybe I'm just allergic to school......
In any case, the testing itself actually counts as my first dose of allergy shots and by the time I got home from the tests (65 individual shots) I was decidedly under the weather or in this case under the allergen. So I took things VERY easy on Friday and Saturday.
On Sunday I got to visit with my friend Heather Bell who I rarely see anymore since we consolidated our two Sunday School hours into one. In any case, I took a different route to Sunday School and found myself with a moment to visit with Heather. We made an appointment to have a look at a choral piece I've been working on for about a year. It is an SSAA piece that I would like to do a scratch recording of because with Finale playback all I get is a fake vocal AHHHH sound and it's hard to imagine. I could sing each of the 4 parts myself, but as Heather is a great first soprano, I'm going to have her sing the 1st soprano part so that the scratch recording sounds as if the singing were effortless
Yesterday and today I've continued to play around with either existing songs OR with fragments that I've come up with recently. I can say that in terms of ideas it was good for me to sort of take the weekend "off" because I actually HAVE some ideas. At the same time, I'm not really pleased with anything I've written in the last few days because the ideas I've got are still somewhat nebulous and lacking in focus. Even when the focus is clear, I'm not sure if the direction the song is headed is where it needs to go.
The best things I can do to get focus and clarity when I write are to go for a walk, read my Bible and just be still. The being still part is the hardest part, when I have all types of media at my fingertips ready to distract me. Things like Netflix and TV and Facebook and blogging and Itunes can at times be a HUGE distraction especially when using finale already places me at my computer. Even when my distractor of choice is NOT technology based, I still have books that I would rather read, chores that need doing and folks who I would love to visit with on the phone.
The more time I experience where I am focused on writing songs, the more I am sure that I really am supposed to set aside this time as an act of obedience. Please pray that I can use my time wisely and work through my distractability to get to a creative place where I can be receptive to whatever the Lord would like to teach me.